There’s a question I get asked every. single. time. I converse with someone about the World Race.
It’s not, “How did the Lord lead you to this decision?” It’s not, “How can I pray for you?” Nor is it “How are you feeling?” (although close but differing in the response).
The number one question I get asked about the World Race is
“ARE YOU EXCITED!?”
No, is what I want to say.
It is asked with the utmost love, sincerity, and respect on their end, but it is honestly the hardest question for me to answer. It’s the question I never want to answer.
It presumes I should be excited about this journey.
However, sweet friends, I don’t think excited is the word I would use.
Then starts the battle within me because I want to be excited.
I want to tell people, YES it’s going to be amazing.
But I don’t want to lie.
I don’t want to paint a picture of a life that’s not true.
If we’re honest, following the Lord is not always “easy” or “fun.” It is definitely fulfilling and worth it, but it does call for sacrifice. Jesus said it himself, “If anyone would be my disciple, they must deny themselves, take up their cross, and follow me.”
“If anyone would be my disciple, they must deny themselves, take up their cross, and follow me.”
I can’t say I’m excited about the “denying myself” part.
I would not say this is the life I would have planned for myself (ESPECIALLY not the living out of one backpack for a year part). I’ve never desired to do overseas missions. I have been adamant that the world of America needs missionaries here that will stand up for Christ and share the Gospel boldly. Furthermore, what I truly desire is to raise up a family that would love and serve the Lord and make disciples through my children.
But I’m comforted through the examples in the Bible of people who were placed in similar circumstances because of what God called them to.
I don’t think during those moments they were excited.
If anyone truly comprehended what Jesus was going to do on the cross, do you think they would’ve gone up to him saying, “Yo, Jesus! That’s so awesome you’re about to take on the sins of the world so God’s children can be united back with the Father. You excited!?”
Yeah, I don’t think that would’ve gone over that well (granted, my Jesus is slick with His responses so He probably would’ve answered in a parable getting to the heart of the question).
But really, think about it. I can only imagine the anguish he had in those moments of knowing he was going to do this regardless because of us and because of the love he had for the father.
Or even Abraham. Could you imagine someone telling him, “Man, it’s so crazy God said you would be the Father of many nations! You excited about going up that mountain to sacrifice your son?”
What about Mary? Think about when she was told that the Messiah would come through her. A virgin? Pregnant? Not yet married? And all she responded was, “I am the Lord’s servant…May your word to me be fulfilled.”
What about Moses?
And we can’t forget Jonah! (Now, that’s a clear account of what it means to NOT be excited).
But really think about all those people and how God used them. Think about what that really meant for their lives.
I don’t think if anyone asked the before mentioned people if they were excited about what was ahead, they would have said, “yes”. But I think they were humbled to know that the Lord CHOSE to use them. Scripture says, “What is man that you are mindful of us?” They were joyful knowing that what God was calling them to do was bigger than them. They understood there was a bigger purpose.
So for me, going on the World Race, at the core, and at the flesh, is not what I want to do. But to serve my Lord and Master in what He calls me to do is what I want to do knowing that there is a plan in it.
So, if you ask me if I”m excited, I probably won’t tell you this in person, but I”m not. I don’t think it’s ever exciting to let go of what you hold so dear.
But if you ask me if I trust Him, I’ll definitely say yes.
Trust and obey.
I think that’s the call of every Christ-follower.
To simply say “yes” to where He calls you.
Not Yes! with an exclamation mark (entailing I’m only doing it because it’s something I’m excited and want to do).
Not Yes? with a question mark ( only moving forward after a series of questions guaranteeing my comfort).
Nor a Yes, with a comma (as to negotiate the conditions under which I will do a particular thing).
But just a Yes. with a period. No questions asked. No specific reward or benefit for me. No negotiations.
Just Yes. Periodt.
Until Heaven or Sooner,
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